Carnaval toda la vida

This post is for InevitablyDooMeD, whoever you are, I just want to share with u my point of view, it might help to have someone else's opinion, plz dont take it badly, if it doesn't help you it might help someone else. There's plenty of ppl out there.

I read you're ambitious, motivated, US educated, going up the corporate ladder. It all translates to me as you coming from a burgeous family and having a job that u find interesting and pays well. Does it mean you are succesfull? I think here you are meassuring succes by community standards, same community standards that bring you frustrations, anger and sorrow. It doesn't sound like all your professional success is paying well emotionally, and by this I don't at all mean that u'd better quit your corporate job and stay at home like women should, plz dont. Bear with me.

Your anxiety comes from not embrasing ur present and wishing for some better future when u'll be loved and men don't lie and women are respected, but since all u describe as being the cause of ur problems is out of ur reach, you dont feel able to find the key to make it happen. Of course no one can give u the key, but let me try share with u how I make change happen.

Everything's about the point of view. It's like a composer deciding this piece is in key of E and this one other in key of F. A painter choosing the colors. A writer can tell the story from the pov of someone who's depressed or excited or doomed. To the same discotheque different people wear black and overcoats or pink cowboy boots and silver hair or plain naked with a g-string. Some dance, some stay at the bar and some others stay home watching movie stars in trendy outfits flashing smiles just becoz it's in the script.

Well there's no script for life. Life is a dream you dream every second, life is your work of art and you are the star. You are free to choose the colours, to set the mood, to play with the characters. So try rearranging a few colours and check again your hand you might find a key to all things that bother you, a pretty real key, as real as anything can be. Why becoming aggressive when you can do your best at using that key to open the doors? Why flashing a smile to conform when u can let the smile open its way from the inner you? Why even considering not smiling when u can fully take hold of the present?

Life is now and you don't need a ticket to ride it! Gandhi once said "be the change you want to see in the world". Fight to build the future you want, but start by changing your reality, it's cliché but you can make a world of difference. We have to take full responsability of what we want and do sth about it. Something small. If it's good it'll spread like a virus. Out there there's plenty of ppl just like us.